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"how do you like the school so far?",
"honestly, i havent even reached the word 'like'."

ive never been this quiet, ive never felt this lonely seeing people around with other people beside them when i was sitting in the hall stairs with my own very bestfriend ipod.
you know that i love to find a way out of this. but the only best thing that i can do was putting your photos in my locker. haha thats pathetic right? why? so i can still have you as my schoolmates, well at least, only every morning when i hang my bag but as soon as i closed it, youre not my schoolmates anymore. i have to face that you guys are 11 hours ahead and miles away from me. but thats pretty much pull out a rare smile from my face. i dont smile very often here, i dont think i have to smile, i dont think i can either.

its not that im pulling myself from what i face in front of me and keep moving back. its just, i just cant imagine what i missed, what i had before. i wish i was a better person back then, a better friend.


and something really funny happened. my home internet is blocked. so im here, in the communication technology class, with tears struggling to fall, and wont care about my grammar correction whatsoever, take a chance to share with you like we always did, only worse.

pictures later.

miss you the most,

sasa.